Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Me Next, Me next please...
It is truly baby season, or that's how it looks from my vantage point. Babies, babies being born all around me. Yesterday while at work I visited with a couple from the ward that had just welcomed their first child. A month before you're due you are supposed to pre-register with the admissions department. I had some free time so I did that today. Well on my way back to the elevator I ran into a couple that was in our childbirth preparation class. She was in labor and they were trying to speed things along by walking. I cannot explain the jealousy that came over me upon seeing them in their present situation. I wanted to imediately switch places with them, yes I wanted to be in the worst pain of my life. I want to meet my daughter, hear her cry for the first time, change her first diapers(crazy person), fall in love with her smell, etc. I need a distraction! Oh but wait I'm moving and have packing and un-packing in my very near future, oh yeah I have school 3 days a week, oh that's right, I'm still working too. Goodness with all that's going on elsewhere in my life I am completely absorbed by one thing and one thing only...Birth day!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
clips from an old post
"On a few occasions he has helped me practice for kids by waking me up at 4am to feed him/massage his back so he can take drugs and go back to sleep".
~Wow, I did that for Mark following his knee surgery? I'm jealous, how many times has he done that for me since I got pregnant?
"So I started out writing this blog post because I was so excited that surgery was over and I am hoping now that Mark and I can act our age and do "NORMAL" twenty-two year old, newlywed things, Like: go for a walk together, ride bikes, go on a vacation, run around and be goofy, go for hikes and other such activities. All the things we took for granted before his injury. I know what you're thinking, only one of us was injured...what was stopping me from doing those things? It is just not the same without your spouse! TO THAT MARK SAYS: That's a lame excuse!"
~Well as soon as Mark started recovering from surgery I ended up pregnant and 8 months later we still have not done a lot of these things.. I am still waiting for life to return to normal, hopefully after our little missy is born she'll be a trooper and we can incorporate our lives into her way of doing things (Yeah, I know she's the boss). I would love to throw her in a sling and head to Yosemite next spring to get some fresh air and enjoy nature with my two favorite people-Mark and our little girly!
~Wow, I did that for Mark following his knee surgery? I'm jealous, how many times has he done that for me since I got pregnant?
"So I started out writing this blog post because I was so excited that surgery was over and I am hoping now that Mark and I can act our age and do "NORMAL" twenty-two year old, newlywed things, Like: go for a walk together, ride bikes, go on a vacation, run around and be goofy, go for hikes and other such activities. All the things we took for granted before his injury. I know what you're thinking, only one of us was injured...what was stopping me from doing those things? It is just not the same without your spouse! TO THAT MARK SAYS: That's a lame excuse!"
~Well as soon as Mark started recovering from surgery I ended up pregnant and 8 months later we still have not done a lot of these things.. I am still waiting for life to return to normal, hopefully after our little missy is born she'll be a trooper and we can incorporate our lives into her way of doing things (Yeah, I know she's the boss). I would love to throw her in a sling and head to Yosemite next spring to get some fresh air and enjoy nature with my two favorite people-Mark and our little girly!
*my brain is clogged. Last week following midterms I was going to blog about how well I felt about them. That pregnancy has actually cleared my mind...I was wrong though. I am totally forgetting names and at work I am making all kinds of ridiculous memory errors. Today I discharged the wrong patient in the computer, consequently all of their orders-tests, meds etc. got cancelled the doctor had to go through and re-order everything. I kind of feel like I am being forced off of work in a few weeks, maybe this is why. NEways I thought I was clear headed because I was able to sit down and study for hours on end without my mind drifting off into other things. In previous semesters when I sat down to study my mind drifted off into babies. One semester I was really into how I wanted a baby and then the next semester I was really distracted by how I wasn't pregnant yet. Now that I am pregnant my classes have nothing to do with pregnancy and children. Last fall I took a Children's Literature and Child Development course because it was when we had just started trying to start a family, and I thought it would be a good idea to start my mommy education and just how cool would it have been to take a child development course while I was building a baby? A few of my classmates had the same idea, except that they actually did get pregnant that semester.
*Food- can't get enough buttery, salty and sweet foods! Can't get enough food in general. This morning I made pancakes, usually it takes me quite a few sittings to finish them all. But at work today it occurred to me that I had eaten the whole batch in one sitting this morning...oops! I do not like cooking, especially in my porky the pig mood I want to go out to eat every meal, every day. The food at home does not seem appetizing in the least, and it involves effort to prepare. But restaurant food, now that is something I enjoy sitting around day dreaming about. I want pumpkin pancakes at IHOP, I want Olive Garden, I want a Snicker's Cheesecake and a Chicken Salad Sandwich at Cheesecake Factory, I want a HUGE creamy pesto salad at Spaghetti Factory, I want french fries, french fries, french fires, I want to have a Mcflurry or yogurt every night. Tonight at work I really, really wanted an Alan's Black and Tan following a hamburger and fries at Leatherby's. It is such a dissapointment to come home to the crappy food we have. I only have a few weeks left in this pregnancy and then I might start depriving myself of yummy things again, so is it wrong to want to splurge and "eat my heart out" for the next few weeks, despite the cost?
Hot flashes-I turn all red and sweat profusely many times a day. It happens randomly throughout the day, but it is guaranteed to happen while I am sleeping. I insist upon sleeping with the windows open for this reason, which Mark does not particularly care for.
*Packing-Mark has started packing for our move. I really dislike packing, I wish we could pack the boxes and imediately take them and un-pack them in the new place. I don't like having boxes just sitting around waiting.
*Food- can't get enough buttery, salty and sweet foods! Can't get enough food in general. This morning I made pancakes, usually it takes me quite a few sittings to finish them all. But at work today it occurred to me that I had eaten the whole batch in one sitting this morning...oops! I do not like cooking, especially in my porky the pig mood I want to go out to eat every meal, every day. The food at home does not seem appetizing in the least, and it involves effort to prepare. But restaurant food, now that is something I enjoy sitting around day dreaming about. I want pumpkin pancakes at IHOP, I want Olive Garden, I want a Snicker's Cheesecake and a Chicken Salad Sandwich at Cheesecake Factory, I want a HUGE creamy pesto salad at Spaghetti Factory, I want french fries, french fries, french fires, I want to have a Mcflurry or yogurt every night. Tonight at work I really, really wanted an Alan's Black and Tan following a hamburger and fries at Leatherby's. It is such a dissapointment to come home to the crappy food we have. I only have a few weeks left in this pregnancy and then I might start depriving myself of yummy things again, so is it wrong to want to splurge and "eat my heart out" for the next few weeks, despite the cost?
Hot flashes-I turn all red and sweat profusely many times a day. It happens randomly throughout the day, but it is guaranteed to happen while I am sleeping. I insist upon sleeping with the windows open for this reason, which Mark does not particularly care for.
*Packing-Mark has started packing for our move. I really dislike packing, I wish we could pack the boxes and imediately take them and un-pack them in the new place. I don't like having boxes just sitting around waiting.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
HELLO...I'm ready
*I've never been so anxious in my life. I was similarly anxious when I knew your dad Mark was getting ready to purpose (but I only waited a few weeks for that). Good grief this is ridiculous, I am ready to meet you. I have held other newborns and babysat dozens of other peoples kids, but I have waited my whole life to hold a baby that was mine. I want to see you for the first time and then proceed to stare at you for hours upon hours, I want to hold you until my arms ache, I want to pick you apart and determine who's nose you have? whose lips? Will you be born with light hair or dark? down the road find out whose eyes you got. I have learned in these last few months that feel like years that you are very active, and if I didn't know any better I would say you got your Aunt Amber's attitude. I would like to meet you and see if this holds true. Will you be athletically inclined? Or to spite your dad and I will you be a bookworm? Will you be outgoing or shy? Will you be blessed with my freckles and cursed with my moles?
*When are you going to come? I am so jealous, as all the other pregnant women around me are bursting. There is another prego at work, due after me and she was just taken off of work. I know of 5 boys and a girl that were born in the month of October. Seeing their pictures is driving me nuts!
*I have a big crib and soon your very own room to offer you, if you decide to join us. I'll try not to go overboard with the girly things, but things could change when you get here, but once again I'll try to keep it to a minimum. I've got some awesome clothes that are just sitting around gathering dust waiting for you. Speaking of dust, everything is thick in dust as I prepared your things WAYYYYY too soon!
*One of us is gaining weight, and I am going to go ahead and blame you. So Yo, you're heavy, walking across campus I feel like my knees are going to give out and I'll roll flat onto my face.
*Ignore your due date, plump up quick and come early, I will be very frustrated if you come late!
*When are you going to come? I am so jealous, as all the other pregnant women around me are bursting. There is another prego at work, due after me and she was just taken off of work. I know of 5 boys and a girl that were born in the month of October. Seeing their pictures is driving me nuts!
*I have a big crib and soon your very own room to offer you, if you decide to join us. I'll try not to go overboard with the girly things, but things could change when you get here, but once again I'll try to keep it to a minimum. I've got some awesome clothes that are just sitting around gathering dust waiting for you. Speaking of dust, everything is thick in dust as I prepared your things WAYYYYY too soon!
*One of us is gaining weight, and I am going to go ahead and blame you. So Yo, you're heavy, walking across campus I feel like my knees are going to give out and I'll roll flat onto my face.
*Ignore your due date, plump up quick and come early, I will be very frustrated if you come late!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Fetal Movement
So yesterday (Friday) the baby was really quiet and restful all day. Even late in the evening when she usually does her ridiculous aerobic routines she was motionless. When I went to sleep she seemed asleep, when I woke up she was still asleep. This started to concern me because she is such a spastic nut! I went to the bathroom and then laid back down in bed, because this usually triggers her to revolt against my laziness. She knows when I stand up and when I lay down and she likes me upright.
NEways when I got up for the day I planned to go to Labor and Delivery following my shift at the hospital for piece of mind, I knew she was alive but thought that they should know about her decreased movements. All day long I counted kicks, turns, anything and everything but the most I got in any hour was 5. This was quite a contrast to earlier in the week when I could get 10 movements in 3 minutes. But as my shift wound down I was getting anxious about going downstairs to L & D and started rehearsing what I would say when I got there.
WELL as of 10:12pm tonight, she's back! Sure enough in the span of 15-20 minutes I got more than 10 movements. I never went downstairs and came straight home after work, and sure enough as usual, upon settling down onto the couch to snack she started her aerobics routine. She is working overtime to make up for her lack of a workout yesterday.
Silly baby! I know when the baby movements are down you're supposed to eat and drink and continue counting, but in this case I have been eating tons and tons and working feverishly to keep hydrated (from 9-11pm last night I emptied my bladder 5 times). I don't know, maybe I ate too much yesterday and sent her into a food coma?
NEways when I got up for the day I planned to go to Labor and Delivery following my shift at the hospital for piece of mind, I knew she was alive but thought that they should know about her decreased movements. All day long I counted kicks, turns, anything and everything but the most I got in any hour was 5. This was quite a contrast to earlier in the week when I could get 10 movements in 3 minutes. But as my shift wound down I was getting anxious about going downstairs to L & D and started rehearsing what I would say when I got there.
WELL as of 10:12pm tonight, she's back! Sure enough in the span of 15-20 minutes I got more than 10 movements. I never went downstairs and came straight home after work, and sure enough as usual, upon settling down onto the couch to snack she started her aerobics routine. She is working overtime to make up for her lack of a workout yesterday.
Silly baby! I know when the baby movements are down you're supposed to eat and drink and continue counting, but in this case I have been eating tons and tons and working feverishly to keep hydrated (from 9-11pm last night I emptied my bladder 5 times). I don't know, maybe I ate too much yesterday and sent her into a food coma?
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Full Circle
before-
first trimester
3rd trimester
My pregnancy has made it full circle now. In the beginning I was horribly nauseous and would spend my days not eating and laying on the couch with my eyes closed because I felt like the room was moving. I was on tons of medicines as I was nauseous, throwing up, my stomach hurt, I had icky indigestion among other things. I did not cook for myself or my husband because I felt so gross.
The second trimester was a blast, a welcome relief from the first trimester and a rest period before the third trimester. During the second trimester I ingested whatever food my heart desired and 2 prenatal vitamins. The third trimester feels a heck of a lot like the first, except that I have quite the gut now. Once again I am nauseous, my stomach hurts, I cannot digest food (I ate a cup of Nestle Chocolate Chips after lunch yesterday and at 9pm I was still burping up chocolate). I am back to old lady status with my morning pill popping-2 prenatals, a calcium pill, 2 iron pills, 2 stool softeners and a few 8mg Zofran's and Zantec 125's get me through the day. I don't like taking medications because they are not the greatest for the baby. But if the meds keep me well enough to keep plugging along in this pregnancy, than I guess it's good for her too.
first trimester
3rd trimester
My pregnancy has made it full circle now. In the beginning I was horribly nauseous and would spend my days not eating and laying on the couch with my eyes closed because I felt like the room was moving. I was on tons of medicines as I was nauseous, throwing up, my stomach hurt, I had icky indigestion among other things. I did not cook for myself or my husband because I felt so gross.
The second trimester was a blast, a welcome relief from the first trimester and a rest period before the third trimester. During the second trimester I ingested whatever food my heart desired and 2 prenatal vitamins. The third trimester feels a heck of a lot like the first, except that I have quite the gut now. Once again I am nauseous, my stomach hurts, I cannot digest food (I ate a cup of Nestle Chocolate Chips after lunch yesterday and at 9pm I was still burping up chocolate). I am back to old lady status with my morning pill popping-2 prenatals, a calcium pill, 2 iron pills, 2 stool softeners and a few 8mg Zofran's and Zantec 125's get me through the day. I don't like taking medications because they are not the greatest for the baby. But if the meds keep me well enough to keep plugging along in this pregnancy, than I guess it's good for her too.
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