The opposite of relaxed

A few weeks back at my first ultrasound the technician told me that if I see blood not to panic. she then went on to explain that outside the amniotic sac I have two subchorionic hemorrages. which is basically just pockets of blood. They usually develop at conception, when the egg sac of sorts burrowed into the wall of my uterus, it caused some bleeding. A couple of things can happen to this blood: either it will be re-absorbed by the body or I will bleed it out eventually. (FYI-this is rare and does not happen to all women)

Sounds pretty simple, and I have been watching for the blood. Well last night when I got home from the in-laws and was getting ready for bed I saw the remnants of some reddish-orange fluid. It kind of reminded me of the discharge one gets when their period is starting but isn't bloody yet. So yes, this is probably just the "pockets of blood" bleeding out. I would not be so concerned if I did not feel like I was being stabbed with knives from the inside of my stomach and had period like cramps. Because another thing that can happen to women with SCH, is a placenta previa. The placenta detaches from the uterus, and because it doesn't have anything to ground it/hold onto it...it exits the body....thus ending your pregnancy. When this happens in the third trimester it warrants a 911 call and a quick trip to Labor and Delivery because you are essentially bleeding out. But in the third trimester they can give you drugs to stop the bleeding and they will keep you until they feel they need to deliver you.

I reviewed the paperwork that I received from the doctor about first trimester symptoms and I felt I met acceptable criteria to call the doctor on call. I was really upset...how was I supposed to concentrate on studying for my final tomorrow? So at like 11pm-ish I called the doctor on call who got back to me promptly. I explained what was going on and he said that in the first trimester there is not anything they can do for "impending miscarriages". We'll just have to take a wait and see approach he said. I asked what that meant...like what are we waiting and seeing? He said that if I pass tissue then I am miscarrying, I should just take it easy and see what happens. The only doctors ordered I received from him was no sex. And that was it, I asked if I should follow up with my doctor in the morning and he said "no, just continue with your regularly scheduled appointments". I am not scheduled to see my doctor for another month.

I was really hoping he would tell me to go to ER, I would have really liked an ultrasound for piece of mind, to know if the babies heart is still beating...but no such luck.

I have spent the last two weeks on self-prescribed bedrest because I have felt like crap. I did not get out of bed all of Saturday. Sunday I was tired of laying in bed and lonely so I ventured out for the day. Went to church, the in-laws, did family portraits, sat, sat, sat. The one day I ventured out of bed...I spot!

The only good news is that I have a regularly scheduled ultrasound on Wednesday, so I do not have to wait too terribly long to hear/see if my baby still has a beating heart.